So of course,
I didn’t mean for go on with those things and I didn’t mean to get so close with them.
confused?
and so did I. bahahahaaa..

because, I’m too afraid to get hurt.

I’m kind of person who doesn’t believe with any relationship.
yes,
I’m not comfortable with those things.
relationship, friendship, and every (bla-bla-bla)-ship.
I do believe, words are really not strong enough to describe what’s inside.
and I also think that every relation just blocking my mind too.
I might hurt them, they might hurt me more. but I can’t barely move because this “relation” is too strong.. those commitment, those loyalty, those promises.
Sometimes, I do what I should do but it doesn’t mean I want to.
Okay,
I’m not that naif.
I did that for a reason and I was stupid to accepted that..

now, I just get tired of chasing everyone or trying to escape.
These are the people —> they are so real.
this feelings too.
everything!

finally I realize,
I must accept that I can’t live without this (bla-bla-bla)-ship things.
because they have told me everything.
so I learn how to let go or let anyone comes to my life all over again.
nothing last forever, so I’ll be patiently to smile and live the life again.

I’ll always know you,
maybe I can’t remember name or all the story we had before.
but I do remember voices and your shape.
thanks had came to my life, even it’s just temporary.

just,
thank you